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8:34 p.m. - 2003-08-14
dos dedos
so.

i broke down and went to zulu (the best music store in the whole wide world. no exceptions, no ifs, ands or buts.) this evening on my way home from a quiet evening hanging out with jody, being tourists on seawall. i like playing tourist in my own city, though it's far too easy to mock the real tourists and risk spoiling their fun... no matter how ridiculous i may find them, i still have no right to intrude on their little world of misguided wonder.

anyway, the point is that i *finally* got my hands on Dos Dedos Mis Amigo, Music For The Jilted Generation, and the first Mr. Bungle album. I had that album when it first came out, on cassette, but lost it somewhere on the journey, so to make up for it i was shocking other drivers with it on the way home. there's something so... special about the opening sequence of The Girls of Porn...

right.

i also wasted some time today learning that i in no way qualify for any sort of government programs with regards to job hunting... but since all i want is information on apprenticeship, that's no big deal. i'm just frustrated that i had to sit through a whole litany of things i don't qualify for in order to make an appointment to talk to someone who can answer my questions.

but just think - i could become an apprentice. and learn something useful, something real, something that could have some possible application in the real world. as fun (and lucrative!) as my job is, i just feel so embarrassed about doing it that it's finally time to move on, and trades seem like the way to go. the money's ok - not as good as film, but reasonable - but more importantly, it's something creative and constantly challenging, something where i can work with my hands, learn new things all the time, and produce things of beauty and value, as opposed to overly commercialized crap.

maybe it won't turn out to be nearly as great as i imagine, but i still feel so good about the simple act of investigating it that i know it's time for change. this may not be the right direction, but it's still the right thing to do.

 

 

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