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2:04 p.m. - 2004-09-03 we were going to stay with Sandy while there, but since he'll be out of town this weekend i was trying to think of somewhere else - now that i'll be alone, i'm just going to stay on Dez's couch, but that wouldn't really work with C along; "current boyfriend, i'd like you to meet my ex-husband. ex-husband, meet my current boyfriend. play nicely." right. that'll happen. i'm uncertain about how to broach the subject with C though... i'm just not sure what he'll think about it, or how important it might seem. to me it's no big deal, since i know there's just no way - ever - that things can be made right again between us. no matter how he might change, or what he might say (or how i might change) i just can't imagine ever trusting him again. i think he's nice and kind and great, i just don't trust him, and that's the bottom line for me. still, i can understand how it might be unsettling, or even threatening, from the "boyfriend" side of things, and if it does bother him... shit. i can't really afford a hotel, not on a holiday long weekend... but it's still warm. i can always sleep on the beach, i guess. i would, if he was that upset by the idea. is that thoughtfulness or stupidity?
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